Love

I believe

 

I believe

I may

Have

Given my

Soul

Away.

 

This is

Often a

Cause

For

Concern,

 

But

I fear more

That

It may be

Returned

Unwanted.

 

 

Fair Trade

 

Love and life

are one and the same

But to lose one

may not destroy the other.

 

Love may live where life is gone

But life devoid of love

is damnation more certain

than any spectre of the hereafter.

 

Would I trade my soul for love?

I fear that I have already given my reply

But I fear more

that I do not fear the consequences.

 

 

Please Be Watching

 

I could search all my life

And never find you.

 

The chances

Are too

Remote.

 

I am

Sending up

A beacon.

 

I need you

To find

Me.

 

Habit

Once in a while
The world
Ends.

 

 

Cruelty

I love you
Just not
In the
Right
Way

 

 

Really

 

How lovely

To have love

Served up to you

On a platter

To be examined

And prodded

Rather than having

To scrabble

And search.

 

 

Weak

 

It’s not

That I haven’t

Found

What I’m looking for.

 

        I have.

        Several times.

 

It’s that,

   Once

      Found,

 

  I can

Never

            Hold

                  On

 

             For more

        Than

 

 

              A

 

 

                     Se

 

 

Why?

Why
Can loving someone
And being
In love
Not
Be the same
Thing?

The human heart is merciless.

 

This Is How You Lived In My Mind Every Night

My lady of love

My lady of life

My lady of beauty

My lady of strife

My mind’s only idol

My heart’s only joy

 

And now you’re gone.

  

 

Unknown

 

I almost want
To delay you
As long
As I can.

To have you
Will mean

The end
Of all that I have known:

Twenty years of solitude
Of dissatisfaction
Of angst.

What will I be
Without all that I have been?

   Better,
     I hope.

 

 

Vapour

 

Real love

Is when

You want to

Turn yourself

Into Ether

So you can wrap

Every part of

Your being

Around

Someone’s

Mind

And

Just

Stay

There

Forever.

 

 

Dilemma

 

Is there really

A difference

Between

Love

And

Worship?

 

When we

Truly love someone,

Does that person

Not innately

Take the place

Of God?

 

Should there be

A distinction?

 

If God is Love,

Does that not

Make Love God?

 

Is that why we feel

So useless

Without it?

 

Is that why

It feels

Like the only thing

That matters?

You

The metre is trite

The substance is, too

Why bother with poetry

When nothing is new?

 

The mind is the night

The heart lies askew

The answers to everything

Still make nothing true

 

So show me your light

You souls of the few

Fill vacuums with ecstasy

The beauty of You

 

But nothing is right

Our sky the wrong hue

These high walls of empathy

Let nothing get through

 

One spark to ignite

A soul so subdued

On the lip of expectancy

I whisper of You.

 

 

O, Black Hole.

When the soul
Collapses
Into
A
Single
Point
There is no
Better word
For what remains
Than that
Which is used
By science.

 

 

Regeneration

 

A long time ago,

I gave my soul away

To someone special.

 

She took it with her when she left.

 

I have been

Slowly

Growing

A

New

One.

 

It is small,

Incomplete,

And so

Very,

Very

Fragile.

 

It’s not much,

But I’d like to

Give it to you.

 

Do you

See now

Why

I am

Afraid?

 

 

The Gap

 

I once read

that people in our lives

are replaceable:

The vacuum left by one

is swiftly filled

by the presence

of another.

That may be so.

But I knew one person

who was different.
When I lost her,

a lifetime of desolation bled out of me in a day.
Then it just kept flowing.

 

 

Emotional Distance

 

You are not the one.

I met her 

and lost her.

You are not the one.

 

 

if only there were something i could say

 

thank you
for showing me
that there are still

people
i can love
on this planet.

  i only wish
  you were
  for me.

 

 

Push

 

I don't want
Someone
To love me
Unconditionally.

I will get lazy.

I want someone
Who will push me
To glorify her
By improving myself.

 

 

Incomplete

 

Do you understand

When I tell you

That love

Can be like

A festering wound?

 

 

Stand Clear

I don't make
Responsible use
Of people's hearts.

I am not to be trusted.

 

 

Zen

 

My only worry

If I am with you

Is that I would be

So happy

That I would forget

Everything else.

 

I didn’t conquer

As much of the world

As I had hoped

 

But the little bits

That I met

I conquered

Well enough.

 

 

Together

 

   The world

      Already

         Ended.

 

                 But

              We’ll

            Just

          Stay

         Here

          A little 

            Longer.

 

 

Fossil

How many people
Must hammer
At the mountain-side
Chiseling away
Piece after piece
Before
A

   Meaningful

  Part
Of my soul
Emerges?

I didn't mean
For it

       to be
Like this.

I just fell
Into amber.

It shouldn't

Be your job
To chip me out.